Everyone at work now knows I’m leaving, and damned if this isn’t the biggest ego trip in the world.
I have been told more times today alone that I am a key part of the business and that they couldn’t have functioned like we have for so long if I wasn’t here. My director of development even went so far as to say how I am one of the best support people he has worked with and that he is personally sad to see me go. The CEO even said as much in different words. And my sales guy was almost the most hurt by my leaving. (For anyone who knows support and sales departments, you’ll know that support and sales are typically arch rivals. But not in this case apparently.)
I am still not happy about having to tell everyone I am leaving them, but at the same time I do realize that I have to do what is right for me and my career. No one ever said that would be easy though. My only fear is that I haven’t made the best choice for me. But what’s done is done and I won’t be dwelling on it anymore.
Now, I have even MORE work to do since there are certain things I need to get done before I leave. Depending on how things go in the next two weeks, I may offer up my services on a part time, after hours, contract basis to help get some stuff accomplished that really needs to be done. If that happens it would be a nice little extra for Christmas time. Of course, it is only a thought in -my- head right now and no where near any sort of reality.
Oddly, everyone at work has been completely supportive of my decision and wish me nothing but the best, which is NOT what I was expecting. Hoping for, yes, but I feared a reaction on par with feelings of betrayal and desertion. Luckily that was not the case.
I have felt more appreciated and needed today than ever before in a company. Ok, thats almost a lie; the department I am returning to has recently made me feel just as appreciated and needed.
From my chat with my CEO today, I have a feeling there will be another big going away bash, which if we do it right, will put the company deeper into the red 🙂
I’m not counting on it, but from everyone’s reaction, I won’t feel odd about a party to send me off like what was done for Joanne and Dave. Hopefully, if it happens, I can get it scheduled for Friday the 19th instead of that Thursday as would be historically traditional. We’ll see.